I firmly
believe in the immortality of souls.
While others may wrestle with the idea, I do not. It makes no sense for us to deal with the
pains and sufferings of this life without some purpose or reason. And while this certainty is one of faith, I
am as sure of this truth as I am that I am writing here. I assume that I exist!
My faith in my LDS religion informs me that we come to this planet from a premortal realm, experience life
while growing and becoming, and at an unforeseen time are called back to our
heavenly home. My faith informs me that
there are experiences in mortality that can only be obtained here, and that my
purpose on earth is to have those good and bad experiences, learning to choose
wisely but learning from my mistakes. I have confidence that I exist for a reason!
I also
believe that my mortal sojourn is choreographed by an all-knowing, all-loving
Supreme Being who is only interested in giving me learning and becoming opportunities. That is not to say that everything in my walk
is predetermined. While He may know my
beginning and end, I don’t. He knows
what is going to happen in my life but I still have choice, or agency. And I believe that every mortal's life is likewise choreographed.
However, those who are mentally incapacitated lack the ability to choose and to experience the full
breadth of life, although their lives can often be a blessing to those who care for them. Others who
become truly addicted to a substance or behavior, or who were born with or
developed psychological maladies like obsessive compulsive disorder or
schizophrenia, or whose upbringing caused these mental dysfunctions to happen,
have limited agency and lack the ability to fully experience life.
Those difficult conditions
beg some questions: what learning and becoming experiences can such persons have? Do they "get a free pass" for the tests of mortality, or are their conditions for the learning and
becoming of those who interact with them?
Did they choose these deficiencies in that premortal realm? Is it possible that they will learn all that
they need to learn in a future time (the Millennium period, in LDS belief),
free from the chains of their dysfunction, before they are judged? Or are they just out of luck?
On a related subject, can someone
who did not have a full mortal life in which to experience mortality learn all
there is to know in a millennial period (another LDS belief), assuming they
have all 1000 years in which to experience "life?" The Church teaches of a terrestrial, peaceful 1000 years. How can one experience how to choose between good and bad, or much more difficult, good and good, when there won't be bad? LDS belief dictates that the Devil "will be loosed for a season." I wonder how long that "season" is, and what really can be learned in a "crammed test?"
And how can
physically and emotionally sound people (are there many of us?) experience all that there is to learn in mortality in 70 to 90 years? I’m
61 and I am still learning so much, and arguably, I am on the downside of my
mortality and don’t have 61 more years left.
How can I learn experientially about mortality in a postmortal spirit world (yet
another LDS belief)? Are we put in charge of overseeing mortals in that realm? I can learn theory
there, learning from my experience in life, but I believe that I knew theory before I came to
earth and I needed this mortality to actually experience what I had learned theoretically.
Is one mortality enough to gain the experiential insight we need?
I'm glad that I have these questions. But at their core, I wonder if a single mortality is enough to experience and learn all that is needful to experience and learn in order to become a god (yet another and very uniquely LDS doctrine)? And yes, it makes perfect sense to me that if in fact God is the father of my spirit that inhabits my physical body, He would want me, His son, to become like Him!
3 comments:
Bob: I read your blog with interest and perspective. . . having seen, as you know, a good deal of the seeming inequities of God, (Broken Bodies and Broken Spirits and Mentalities) in third world countries, i.e Central and South America, Africa, the Far East etc. and as well here in the US, I also wonder about the quality and the quantity of our experiences. But unlike your assumption that most of the LDS Faithful are counseled to just have faith and hang on, I believe that most of us subscribe to Emerson's proverb and insight: "All that I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen." (or Experienced) There is so much that I do not understand and a good deal that makes me Shutter and want to close my eyes, but there is eversomuch of His Hand in our lives that I recognize as His goodness and knowledge that literally boggles my mind and causes me to defer my questions 'Until I counsel with Him'. I don't have a handle or even a satisfactory explanation on many things I see and experience. But it has been made known to me that He will confide more of His truths and more of His reasons and purposes when I am ready. I know that He loves me and is an integral part of my planned progression. Love, 'Yer Brother
I am grateful that you read it. I too believe that "He will confide more of His truths and more of His reasons and purposes when I am ready." Nonetheless, as I wait in patience, my questioning will make the final answers more sweet when I am given them. I do not doubt Him. From my finite perspective, I can't comprehend how it all fits. But that's okay!
I have often thought about these things and decided that I should take a step away from the LDS version of finding or understanding and "recalibrate" my perspective. It is not only very hard to reset that mind set but also very liberating in a sense. My answers to most of your questions are "no" No its not part of a bigger plan, no people did not choose to endure the horrific or debilitating enfermities that they are born with. No people dont get cancer because they are being tested. People are born with down syndrome because they hit the genetic "mis-lottery" when they were conceived. I dont want to say that God doesnt exist but he doesnt play a part in the trials and tribulations, we do that to ourselves. If you look at the prime example we follow, Jesus. He knew that he was the son of God. He didnt suppose or believe or hope one day. He was told, administered to, and had the power of his Father from the beginning.
So how is that anything like us? It isnt. So in short these arent questions I have anymore. The questions I have for myself are "How do I become a better person and have as much or more faith in myself than anything else so that can translate to everything else?"
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